Today is Valentine’s day. Today is the day of love.
And as those keeping track will know, I’ve never in my life had a good Valentine’s Day. Actually, it was on Valentine’s Day in 2011 that I was told the words ‘there is another girl’ and I felt my heart shatter into a million and one pieces. That was hard. And then, of course, here I sit in 2013 somewhat still numb from this.
And I know it’s just a day. A silly, silly, day. But still, it sucks. I had hope. I believed. I was naive. And yes, the relationship was expected to end. But we had discussed it. Talked about it. We had a plan. And so I looked forward to this February 14th day as a celebration of the past year. And now here it is. And I can’t eat. Or sleep. Or feel.
But still, despite all of that, I wanted to pause for a moment in time and write a happy valentine’s day card. I think there is so much emphasis on this day celebrating couple love, but why not celebrate all love? Because if there is anything I’ve learned in the last few days it is that I am loved. And I have SO many wonderful, wonderful girlfriends in my life. Here in Australia, back home in Canada, and even some I’ve never met living inside my computer (*waves frantically to you*).
My sister, my mom, my friends back home. The ladies from my CrossFit, my friends from work. And of course this blog. I have been blown away by love and support and despite feeling so sad on this Valentine’s Day, I am so aware of the wonderful support & love I have. Thank you.
Heartbreak is such a universal thing, and (from my experience) it’s something embedded so deep from within that you can’t shake it off, or laugh through it. It’s something that stays with you every moment of the day, and steals your sleep away at night. It claims your heart, body, and soul. And it’s something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.
But I have found so much comfort in others’ stories, comments, and kind words. I am a strong believer that I’ll move past this with time (I learned that last time when I truly thought my world had ended), and that I’ll come out better, stronger, and smarter from this. Matt wasn’t the one for me. I wasn’t the one for him. And although I am bruised and battered today, I just wanted to say a Happy Valentine’s to you and a huge (huge!) thank you.