February 13th, 2013
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Gutted
Embarrassed
Wish I had been better
Looked better
Acted better
Weighed less
And. Wish I had a clock to go back in time.

He broke up with me
And I’m alone in New Zealand
It was over text.

He can’t help it
He just doesn’t feel it
He doesn’t like me anymore
He prefers to be alone than with me.

I feel so foolish Helpless
Lost
Anyone. Someone. Help.

I froze when I read his words
I wanted to change his mind
I wanted to shake him
Wake up…

But I just sat there
My heart beating a million miles an hour
I am so sad right now
And I have cried
And it is what it is
And I hate that I hate me.

He just lost interest
Just like that.
Devastated.
He never thought of me
Wanted me
Missed me
And it’s so public
And I don’t want to tell anyone,
But rather sit here forever or until it stops hurting.

But I owe it to you, the reader; Matt broke up with me. And my heart hurts so badly right now.

Heart Break
Heartbroken
New Zealand
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  1. babywantsback said: Some day you’ll thank him - he’s done you a favour. Now you can concentrate on being the best you and then when you’ve all but decided life is good on your own and you are enough the right guy will come along…right now go to the gym and push some heavy wights. You are…
  2. xoxoverme said: Silly girl. He did it for you. Because he loves you and it’s easier for you to say good bye.
  3. fairshakesrinear said: That is deplorable. No one should ever be broken up with in that way. I am so angry for you. What a shame.
  4. shrinkingmomma said: I am so sorry. There is no reason to be embarrassed. Making yourself vulnerable is part of being in love. Try to stay strong.
  5. fitterisbetter said: I’m so so sorry. For someone to genuinely love you and care for you and then just break your heart? There are no right words for me to say I hope you know you WILL be ok. You will hurt, but one day, you’ll be OK.
  6. calageegirl said: Hang in there girl, you deserve better, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. You’re never alone, there’s always someone to lean on! Hugs from Seattle USA <3
  7. bittemeinherr said: You have experienced a lot over this past year (from what I can tell) Don’t regret it. You deserve to look around and find someone who loves all the best of you no matter what. Sending my <3 and good juju from South Louisiana.
  8. practicepeaceandlove said: Sending you so much love and light. You will come out of this stronger <3
  9. rookcanrun said: So sorry. I’ve been there and there is nothing I can say to make it better. Only time can do that. Hang in there.
  10. winninginlosing said: OMG.. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this, but never feel like you’re alone. You have all of us around the world who feel like we know you so well and feel like we are a part of your life. You truly deserve better and will find it, I promise.
  11. caffeineandcomics said: Big, big hugs to you, if you’ll accept it from a complete stranger, halfway around the globe.
  12. biscuitpusher said: I’m so sorry. I went through something similar a few years back. I didn’t think my heart would ever heal, but it did. Don’t second guess yourself. He either wants you the way you are, lumps, neurosis, awesomeness and all, or you don’t want him.
  13. fittergirl said: Liz, The fact that he broke up, over text, while you should be enjoying your trip, says so much. A real man would’ve waited. I’m so sorry.
  14. controlurlife reblogged this from one-twenty-five and added:
    Letting the past...the brighter future and fun that awaits
  15. sangaynicole said: Oh my, I’m so sorry! If there’s anything, ANYTHING you need or want to talk about, find my ask box <3
  16. madsmakher said: Oh liz don’t be embarrassed! he’s a fool! you’re life is so grand and full of amazing experiences and people that after the ache dulls, you’ll remember the kickass woman you are. man or no man!
  17. lisa0204 said: I don’t know you Liz but you seem like a wonderful person full of life. Although it may seem horrible right now I’m sure one day you will probably see that it was meant. God must have someone else in mind for you. Reach out to friends for support.
  18. seesmitarun said: Hang in there! It gets better, I promise!
  19. hopeisarope said: Just hang in there.
  20. lilacrane said: Thinking of you.
  21. karladoesmotherhood said: I’m so sorry Liz!
  22. becomingkatie said: I teared up reading this because I know that hurt, and it’s one of the worst kinds of hurt there is. :’( But remember, you are a beautiful woman who inspires the masses just by being a regular woman. We love you for that.
  23. eugeneslost said: Awww. I am so sorry that you’re hurting and nothing can make that go away but time. But we’re here for you. You have been so courageous and such an inspiration to us. Hang in there, L.
  24. socaliente said: I love you and your courage to share this. And I know it’s tough to understand but I a million times promise you that this has nothing to do with the way you look. You are so so beautiful <3
  25. meateating said: This made me so sad. I’m so sorry. :( nothing anyone can say now will make you feel better—but when you’ve had some time and space, you’ll see what an ASSHOLE this guy was breaking up with you on a text. Ugh.
  26. strongfitfun said: my heart is with your heart. it has felt this pain. it feels it now with you. it is going to hurt for awhile. slowly it gets better, you will be changed because of it, you will find out even more about yourself. you are wonderful, amazing, brave. <3
  27. unforgivenminute said: you have incredible strength to be dealing with such pain in such a public place. thinking of you!
  28. amd1023 said: It will be okay! You is kind, you is smart, you is important!
  29. im-notyour-robott said: Love and hugs your way! Don’t know what to say really but you’re strong enough to do this. xxxxxxxxxxxx
  30. dltcarmen7 said: What a coward he was to do it over text and while ur on vacation. He didn’t have the b*%#s to tell u face to face!! U deserve so much better and I know an amazing person who is worthy of ur love will come along. Be strong and remember time heals all-Xoxo
Welcome! I'm Liz, the girl relieved the Internet has 0 calories. I'm a Canadian in Melbourne. A marathoner. CrossFitter. Paleo (somewhat) eater. Traveler. Cheese lover. And I think you're great!

F | 28 | 5'4"
Highest Weight: 203
Current Weight: 172
Goal Weight: 125(!)

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