Confession: I was going to quit blogging. Quit 125. Walk away from all things tumblr land. There was no specific reason for my decision. I was behind on work, I had gained weight (like, a lot), and just didn’t want to type out the words, “I’m failing” and then be reminded of that every time I logged in.
I didn’t make it a week.
I think I would have walked away had I not discovered the above gem last night. It nearly brought me to tears. Oh. My. God. I can NOT let that happen again. Ever. I don’t even remember ever seeing myself like that (I was 200+ here). Love for yourself makes you blind. I was blind. I remember thinking I looked good. Ya.. think about that.
I currently weigh 170. I couldn’t even tell you how. I feel fat. I look fat. I am fat. BUT this will change. I will change. We can change. Operation don’t gain (any more) weight at Christmas has begun. I’ll record every morsel of food I turn down.
Food #1: Small, strawberry, hard candy.
Food #2: 6” turkey subway. Instead? a salad.